Bitter note....

The day which started with laughter and optimism is ending on a bitter note.
The more i know people around me (men in general) the more i am becoming evasive to relationships and the word love.
The mean ness and the lust (venality of emotions which i call it some times) have decreased every thing into glossy credentials and Greek god looks.
Some times i wonder on one of my very close friend’s remarks that life as a dumb blonde is very easy.
The time other person start knowing that you are some one with opinion, thoughts and yes the power to make decisions things get into quagmire leaving you with many dead end questions.
I use to perceive that his rejection was timely. That i will grow up as a strong person out of it. But now I realize that one incidence has created a ghost in me.
I retrieve even before the other person thinks to hit the ball back in my court.
I am a lousy player. in tennis as well as in real life...